Hi. So I kinda dropped back here and realization hit me hard: wow, I haven't been on dA in AGES and my dA is all dusty now D: That also means I haven't drawn anything in forever, what a fail :"(
So...I figured I'll update something, even as stupid as this journal.
Life has been a massive joke to me. My grandma just left us, and I couldn't even manage to come with her to her final resting place because I was sick to the point I couldn't even move in bed and I had to take sick leave from work for weeks, again.
What the hell is wrong with those jokes, or did I do something wrong in my past?
Yeah, anyways, it's been a month and I just got back to work today, and feeling utterly depressed because I have a feeling that nothing would quite be the same as before anymore.
Everything is changing so fast and I'm getting so old already.
So sad, so sad.
I can't drown myself in writing forever, can I?
Trust me, I wish I could draw the way I used to do everyday, I really do...
I want to be able to draw again, to have inspiration again.
To be free.
Life is such an unending string of jokes and frustration.
Missed you guys, my old friends...